I'm in the mood to self-reflect. So hear me out. Or read me. Whatever.
I was clearing out my room earlier this evening, as I needed to make more room for myself. I just realized that a crowded space is no longer my 'thing' (or was I just too lazy to clean up before? Maybe I've been in denial all these times? Well, no matter! :p).
Interestingly, I found quite a number of things from my past. I didn't even realize I had them! (Oh, just so you know, they were all covered in dust...LITERALLY! I swear to God I could have died back there! Just wanted to add the dramatic effect here! :p).
These things made me wonder... have I changed over these years? If so, how much? Well, I have, and...A LOT... but of course, for the better. There were so many dark things from my past that I had put behind... and at this age, I couldn't help but laugh at myself... my past mistakes. How foolish was I? VERY! Well, I was young and stupid. Let's laugh together. Okay, stop! You're making me uncomfortable :p.
Anyway, I found a piece of paper entitled "How Could You?". It took me quite sometime to realize that it was actually written by ME! Back in 2006...!!! To be exact, on 4th June 2006. Now, where was I back then? What was I thinking or feeling? What kind of condition was I in? By the looks of it, it seemed pretty clear to me that I was upset... so sad that I poured out what I was feeling at that particular moment in time. I kinda felt sorry for my "old" self. *sigh* If only you knew...
So let me share with you what I had written...brace yourself now!!! This could be dangerous! :p
"HOW COULD YOU?" [Written by Me, Myself & I... back in the day!]
Once upon a time
When I thought you were mine
I gave you all my heart
But you broke it in two
I cannot deny
What I felt for you was real
Oh baby can't you see?
Now I can lash out and say...
I don't wanna be a fool... NO!
Cos I don't wanna lose my cool
But for now... hear me out, so stay...
This is what I have to say
How could you blame me?
You never wanted me
Now you say that you really want me back...
I've got to let go
This feelin' in my heart
I've got these five words
To tell you how I feel
I-AM-SO-OVER-YOU!
I'm all cried out
Don't wanna give in
How can that be so hard to comprehend?
So I told myself
How could I lose
Something that I never had before?
How could you blame me?
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I am so thankful that the past has shaped who I am today.
Nobody likes change.
But change is inevitable.
Whether you like it or not, we have to face it... someday... somehow.
Embrace it!
If you're too short-sighted, a change is in fact, a BLESSING in disguise... we just took it for granted. Think about it.
